Thursday 15 December 2011

Thursday 15th December

Wow, 10 days left until Christmas! This year's gone past really fast and the end's now in sight.

I got my four day working week, it was supposed to have started Monday 5th, but the company I work for didn't have any staff and I had to work, training a new relief guard to take over my Monday day shifts. I trained her for three days Mon 5th - Weds 7th and she did her own first Monday day shift this Monday just gone, giving me my first 4 day week.

So, that's that sorted out then.

Now, onto the bailiff. That's sorted out as well. He came around to the house and did what's known as a "walking possession", which means he took a list of 7  items in the house which would be seized if I fail to make future installment payments on time. I've paid him my first £110.00 deposit on his visit, and I've offered settlement at £75.00 a month, starting January.

Most of the Christmas shopping's done now as well. Luckily my next rent payment isn't due until the 2nd January, and I'll pay that when I next get paid on the 6th, so the rent, in effect, will be three days late. I've used December's rent payment to fund Christmas. I've just got two presents left to get, which will probably be gift vouchers.

But will I see the kids? Regular readers know my baby daughter lives with me, but there are three others involved. These are step kids that accepted me into their lives as I got into a relationship with their mother, and who I was proud to adopt, and they all hold my name.

My First Christmas With My New Family


But the marriage break up has also, obviously, broken the family up. The kids are adults now with the eldest girl being 34, my son is now 32, and the middle daughter is 28. I seen all three of them just once this year since January, and Middle Daughter is upset with me because I'm not going to her wedding in Italy in June 2012 as I can't afford to go - I can barely survive at the moment, let alone scrape a £1000 together for a short holiday in Italy.

I hope the daughter forgives me for not going - but time will tell. I guess if the kids don't come around mine sometime in the Christmas period I'll go around theirs in January. Time will tell.

So, do I get them Christmas presents now? I'm not sure - it may be a waste of money.

I can't wait for my new life to kick in - to start. See, after devoting myself - and the money - to the family for 15, almost 16 years, there now is no reason for failure as I am now in total control of my life and finances. No excuses. Only when I make it - and that Rolls Royce is parked outside my house and I have money - spare - in the bank, will I be able to make it up to all of them.

And, on that point, I've finished the editorial of my first magazine, including the cover, I've just had £34 Royalties paid into my Paypal account for last months sales from my publishers, and on checking my publisher's earnings page I see I've sold another 7 books up to and including the 11th December, making a total of £18.68 royalties at the moment. I've also sold a copy of my autism book through my Amazon account today, making another £6 payment due within another few days.

My initial target for the business is to earn enough money to cover my quarterly bills. I pray every day that I make it.

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